"If God really does exist Why did He desert me"

So many of us have been there.  something happens and we think this same thought that was penned in the Gilbert O' Sullivan's song,  "Alone Again" which goes like this:  "Talk about God and His mercy 
Or if He really does exist 
Why did He desert me in my hour of need"

This is a common thought and I will not try to minimize anybody's pain that they have or are now going through.  I can really only say how I got through this myself.  

There have been times in my life that I have felt abandoned by those who I thought loved me most including God.  The pain was immense.  It was not something that I could just shake off and go on, but I did get through it with me still believing in God.  The first helpful thought that I remember having was thinking about the brutality of that day we refer to as Good Friday as well as Thursday night.  As I thought on that, I realized that my pain was only a glimpse of what Jesus went through.  As I began to realize what that 24 hour period was like for Him, I began to see Him as someone who could identify with me and I with Him.  There is a feeling of brotherhood among people who have gone through something and my pain created that scenario between me and God.   

So the question became, did that happen just so I could identify with Him?  I don't think so.  I do not think God created this world to be this way.  We did that.  I believe that God created a  Tropical like Paradise and placed a naked man and a naked woman there to live in perfect harmony with each other and nature and with Him.  It was and still is our rebellion that causes the hurts and evil that is done in the world today.  That includes the evil done against each and every one of us.  

I am not totally there yet, but I can see where God became the cure for my hurt and that He is healing me. For me, Easter is not only a time of Spiritual healing that gives me hope of seeing my loved ones who have passed on before me, but also a time of remembering the healing of my soul and the hurts suffered here.  As my soul heals, I am able to love friends, God, and even the ones who have hurt me in the past.